Relationship/family update

So Hubs and I had a *massive* blow-out on Sunday night.

Some things were said that we didn't mean and I said some things that I hadn't revealed before.

While it sucked in the midst of it and during the aftermath for a bit -- it was also very cathartic.

Since that night, we've actually been communicating better than we have in ages.  And, the best part is that Hubs has even been initiating some of these conversations about how I am feeling about things and what we want to accomplish and work on etc...

It's more like the way we used to communicate in the earlier years of our relationship (we've been together for 5 years).

I think the combination of  the Ciprolax and the Wellbutrin is working well for him.

We are trying to have a week of no yelling and we've made "time out cards" for each of us (except Baby Girl) to try to use when things are starting to get heated.

Hopefully it helps :>

Also, Baby Girl has an appointment at KidsAbility later this month to have her speech development assessed so I'm glad that is being taken care of (I put her on a waiting list in late 2011).

Little Man is on a waiting list for some ABA work.  And he's doing well on his daily dose of 30 mg of Biphentin (to help him focus and control his impulses) plus 3 mg of Melatonin before bed to help him sleep.

Rhyme Girl is back in therapy and her mother has been taking her - though Hubs needs to push to find out what the counselor recommends...

I have an appointment with my family DR to discuss anti-depressants tomorrow and my next therapy appointment is on the 9th.

Right now I am drinking a protein packed smoothie and then I've got some tidying up to do.

Here's hoping everyone is well.

update

So, just had a fight with Hubs re: my anxiety/panic/PTSD -- he doesn't understand it and I try not to make a big issue of it all. But, I've been struggling with it lately.

I have my second therapy appointment tomorrow... am feeling pretty keyed up about it.  I debated back and forth and back and forth on whether or not to write about it here and, as you can see, I did NOT detail the session.

I still find myself feeling somewhat "raw" from it in ways.  Even though, overall, I think it went well but I have been having more times where I feel really disconnected as well as times where I am really emotional.

I suppose it's all part of the process.

In other news, I've made a new friend and her son and Little Man get along EXTREMELY well and that's really nice for both of them.

My appointment with Little Man's school was re-scheduled due to poor driving conditions re: my support coordinator from DSRC so hopefully the weather cooperates on Thursday which is also the day back in 2007 that Hubs and I really connected and started talking.

Have been working on saving money on groceries thanks to H's advice and Walmart's price matching policies.

Budgeting on a low income is a must - but is still challenging.

Am hoping to swing a discounted Y membership into February's budget so I have something to do to help re-motivate me.

Right now my one motivation is, apparently, house-organization.  It's a slow, arduous process but worthwhile if we can actually get this place all sorted out.

Baby Girl is 22 months old today.  I'll have to log in with one of my other email addys so that I can add a photo of her.