I've been having a harder time this week.
Being more active makes me more conscious of my stomach skin apron. I am seriously considering looking into a panniculectomy once I am at a and maintaining a healthy weight since I believe it is covered by OHIP.
But when I went out walking with 1G1D1Y and M. last night (I did 4 k!) I was talking about how I've been feeling and 1G1D1Y suggested that because I am doing this Hate-Loss challenge that maybe I'm having a subconscious struggle with my previously mentioned first set-back/gain in that I am trying hard not to say things like "it sucks" etc...
I'm also having some struggles with Hubs as he's been feeling very amorous and I have not been feeling that way. I've always had some issues with being seen naked during acts of intimacy. Even when I was what, in hindsight, I'd call skinny.
And I'm finding that it's bothering me more lately - so there are a myriad of reasons I am not feeling uber-sexy (I don't feel like dissecting them all at the moment) and frankly, that's kind of odd for me because large or skinny - I've always had a pretty active sex drive once I became sexually active.
I think this week, I will have to own feeling like a hate-loss failure.
Next week will be better, I am sure.