The slow-down

I realize with some trepidation that this is the slowest I've lost weight in awhile.  And I can attribute it to a number of things... stress, lack of sleep and LESS EXERCISE.

That's probably the worst thing right now... after doing Xmas shopping or visiting with friends and family and that sort of thing -- I just am not forcing myself to exercise.

My ankle is feeling better although it is still a little tender.  But I'm scared of doing something that will really mess it up.

With being busy with Xmas coming - I'm OK with slowing down because once all this stuff is over, it's back to normal.

I find this time of year really emotional even without a lot of the things that have gone on lately.

I know I mentioned my niece and her situation with my newest great-nephew having CF.  And I know I mentioned my blood relative with the severe addiction problem.  As well as my friend losing his father.  Then one of my dear friends had a miscarriage (and she's wanted a baby for a very long time). And one of my BFFs was very upset and crushed when her friend's 18-year-old daughter died of cancer.

Xmas is never easy for me because I have been a bit of a Bam Humburg-er since my Dad died in 1993.

If it was up to me, I wouldn't decorate at all.  I'm not crafty.  I'm allergic to pine and I personally hate the idea of killing a live tree just to have one in the house for the holidays. So I don't understand that.

I don't bake and I, frankly, don't need cookies and other sweets anyway.

I don't like the pressure of the shopping and the frantic scheduling required to make sure everyone sees everyone.

We get Step-Daughter on Xmas Eve (so Hubs is picking her up hoping around noon) then they will come straight back and meet Baby Girl and Son and myself at one of my BFF's home where we will do gift exchange and cookie decoration.

Xmas morning, the kids will have to scramble and open gifts before we head over to my birth mom's place to do Xmas with them before Son leaves with his father.

My adoptive family is having our family Xmas on Jan 9th and then we'll be done.

It's all so complicated compared to when I was a little kid and I only knew one family and only had one Xmas where everyone was there.

We don't usually do Xmas with Hubs family because of weather and road conditions plus timing.  Hubs will go in on his own to get Step-Daughter and to take her back but Son and I (and now Baby Girl) don't go.  I'm not good with the drive and the traffic in good weather, in winter conditions in south Western Ontario I get even more stressed and anxious.

It would be ideal if all our families were at least in the same town.  It would make scheduling much easier.

But that's not how it is.

Add to that the fact that the holidays ALWAYS suck because my parents are dead and well, you can maybe see why I am a Bah Humbug-er.

I do like seeing the kids' faces when they open presents and I love spending time with the people that I love - I just wish it was less complicated.

And this turned into quite the tangent.

To get back to the beginning - my mindset is rather poor at the moment but when things slow down and I can RELAX again - I will start seeing drops the way I like them from my scale.