Eventually this becomes a "thank you for reading and understanding" post

The kind where you pause and say, "I'm ____ years old and I still don't know how to be what I want to be when I grow up."

For me - the number is 38.

When I was in kindergarten I wanted to be a Mom and a writer and over the years other things got added in, I think when I was 13 or so I wanted to be a Mom, a writer, an actress, a singer and a dancer.

The only things on that list that never changed were wanting to be a Mom and wanting to be a writer.

I have tons of unfinished fiction pieces, I have a lot of poetry, and I have some blogs.

Does blogging make me a writer?  (A poor, unpaid one, but a writer nonetheless???)

This is the main blog that gets my attention and I keep debating whether or not I should merge my main blog with this one but I have a main blog (mostly filled with hypothetical tumbleweeds at the moment), a poetry blog and a blog about my kids all affiliated with my non-anonymous life.

I have a Twitter account (that I rarely use), I have a Facebook, I have a real name that's not "Jayne Doe" or "FatAngryBlog" (though even on my other blogs, I don't use my real name because I get paranoid since at least on FB I can use privacy settings).

The reason I started this Fat, Angry Blog was because I wasn't ready to tell people in my real life about my weight loss journey.

I had a fear of failure and even a fear of being mocked for trying to change AGAIN and lose weight AGAIN.

Now my other blogs don't have many followers,  but I have always sort of separated my life and my identity into different pieces and certain pieces are what some of my acquaintances relate to and a few people get the whole package in all it's sarcastic, self-depreciating glory.

So I am still not ready now to merge the blogs, I have started to consider it.  Though the poetry/fiction should probably still stay on it's own even if I do decide to roll everything else into one in the future.

But I have to say that I am so pleased to have "met" so many wonderful people on this journey to health.  Some of you are in the same place I am, some of you are way ahead in maintenance-land and some of you are just starting out and I have to say that I learn things from and/or relate to all of you and I hope that you (the collective you) find the same things when you come here.

Thanks for listening, thanks for reading, thanks for understanding and thanks for commenting so I know I'm not just yelling into the wind!