Monday, April 4, 2011

Having a day...

Hello and how are you?

I'm in kind of a mood today... I am buried in laundry - I am feeling like I am drowning in the disorganization of this house.

And I say "this house" because it doesn't even feel like "home" right now. Instead it feels like something I need to battle and overcome.

I can't even count how many times I've gone into a frustrated clean & purge to then turn around, later the same day, to find an area I've cleaned and organized, covered AGAIN with stuff that isn't even MINE!!!

Hubs and I are both rather disorganized people. This comes out in a lot of ways... we struggle with things like grocery shopping, meal planning, time management and organization.

My late parents were working their way into being able to be featured on the show "Hoarders" (although they were what I would call organized hoarders).

With me being the extremely unhealthy and what my older sibs would call "spoiled" youngest child -- I didn't have a lot of responsibility growing up.

  • I was never taught how to cook
  • I never had to help clean up inside the house (not even in my own room)
  • I never had to do my own laundry until I was in my late 20s
  • I was never taught about managing my finances
Now we can add to that, just how "sheltered" I was... I did not have a bath ALL BY MYSELF until I was going into Grade 7 and that's because I was having a sleepover at one of my sister's and I had to ask her for help shampooing my hair.

Why did my Mom insist of giving me my baths?  Because she was afraid that I would drown.

Even in my early 20s, after Daddy died and I still lived at home with my Mom, I had to leave the bathroom door unlocked and ajar so she could call in and make sure I wasn't dead.

This might have been related to me trying to kill myself back when I was about 9 (I drank the grossest looking thing I could find in the medicine cabinet - and puked my guts out).

I just read what I have so far to 1G1D1Y because I'm feeling super-venty.

Of course we can add that to my upset tummy & bowels - thank you stress!!!


Silliest thing that's stressing me... I do NOT have my Lazy Accents move down pat for belly-dancing tonight...

OK -- I'm cutting this off for now.  Hopefully I'll have a happier post later.


  1. Sorry to hear you're in a rut.

    My nickname is Martha StewartWitch so I wish I was closer to help you out.

    I have a couple of friends who are organizationally challenged and swear by

    Hope your day gets better and you have a good time dancing tonight. When I was bellydancing I always felt better after leaving class. Like I danced all that negativity away.

  2. Sounds like you were very sheltered. My mother was the opposite.

  3. I feel your pain I am usually super organized at work because I have to be (I am a high school teacher) but at home I joke and say that I am pig husband is a neat freak and he hates it. It has been a long process but I sometimes feel like I am always trying to be neature and it never happened. I feel your pain!

  4. @Momma Hunt - hell I *wish* one of us had even a touch of neat freak in us - I think it would help ;>