Blogger problems

I installed intensedebate for my comments because Ellen and Colleen have it and seem to like it.

I have msgs in my email saying I have comments and yet, I can't currently access them or reply to them on my blog...

???

Passing on the versatile blogger award & some things about my day

Alright so 5 bloggers I'd like to pass the award on to PLUS 6 things about me that people don't know...

The Blogs (and the Bloggers who write them):

• Dark Mother Goddess
• Goodbye, Fat Girl
• I Am That
• Finding my Fabulosity
• and this one I'm leaving blank because there are so many blogs I read (even if I don't always have a comment) that I think deserve some kudos and award-type love so if you want this award or think someone else deserves it - I leave this spot for you to snag it and pass it along!!!

6 Things about me most of you don't know

#1 - I own exactly ONE g-string and it was actually comfortable even if I did not think it looked as sexy on me as Hubs thought it did (and yeah, I've only worn it once).

#2 - I bought a belly-dancing coin belt today at the Farmer's Market because I still remember telling Ellen that I'd try to do a belly-dancing vlog for April 7th.

#3 - I have HUGE feet for a woman, especially since I got ripped off in the height department (I'm 5 ft 5 and 1/2 inches tall). My new Reeboks are a MENS size 9.5 (aka a women's 11.5).

#4 - I am going on a trip to Calgary with one of my BFFs for the long wkend in May. It will be my first time on a plane since the year 2000.

#5 -I'm really enjoying the new show, "Mad Love" on CBS because I adore Tyler Labine (Larry) & his chemistry with Judy Greer (Connie), who I adore in a different way, is fantastic.

Yes, I know the "main" couple of the show are supposed to be Jason Biggs (Ben) & Sarah Chalke (Kate) but, although I enjoy the actors and their characters - for me it's all about "Larry" and "Connie."

Also, I love seeing Connie-obsessed neighbour, Clyde (Martin Starr - who I loved most as Bill on "Freaks & Geeks" ).

#6 - I'm not wearing a bra right now (I just breastfed Baby Girl and I wasn't wearing a nursing bra today).

There - 6 things - done!

I only have 4147 steps so far today - but it's kind of yucky outside so I didn't go for a walk with S-girl.

I am happy with my Reeboks (on sale from the outlet store!!! $50 cheaper than the ones I tried on at the mall).  I also got a hoodie for $16.50 (down from $59.99).  And I picked up Son a pair of size 4 kids Reeboks for 19.99 (they should fit by summer).

We caved and bought bacon for the first time since, I actually think last July when I started this journey.

It comes from a local farm.  We buy various meat products from them because they aren't feeding the animals food enhanced with chemicals and such.

Everything we've ever bought from them has been really tasty - cooks up well and doesn't have a lot of fat or grease.

Also stopped by Walmart and grabbed a 3 sleeper set ($12) and a 2 pair set of stretchy pants ($5) for Baby Girl and 2 "Twilight" shirts for Step-Daughter (on clearance for $3 each).

Oh and I replaced a long-lost Jude Deveraux book of mine and picked up two more Kathy Reichs at the market.

Almost forgot - we got some soybeans for snacking on.  My naturopath turned me on to these...

The website for the soybeans is:  www.beanladies.com

Edited to add that I've received some great comments on this blog post but they are not showing up on Blogger...

?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!#@@@##!!!!!???

*sigh*

I'm adding the comments:


Tim (Site/Blog URL: http://timmoyoungfatboythin.blogspot.com/) commented on Passing on the versatile blogger award & some things about my day - http://fat-angry-blog.blogspot.com/:

I like your trainers, they're really nice. I've never had Reebok ones before but I've had my eye on a pair for a while now after quite a few people have said how comfortable they tend to be.

Congtats on the reward!

Grace (Site/Blog URL: http://healthyxdreaming.blogspot.com/) commented on Passing on the versatile blogger award & some things about my day - http://fat-angry-blog.blogspot.com/:

You have the nicest hourglass figure! I would kill for a defined waist like that. i stumbled on your blog and I LOVE IT!

als (Site/Blog URL: http://dancingtowardsmyself.blogspot.com/) commented on Passing on the versatile blogger award & some things about my day - http://fat-angry-blog.blogspot.com/:

I love your new hip belt, and LOOK AT YOUR WAIST!!! Gorgeous!!! I can't wait to see you dancing in your Belly Vlog! :D

lesley (Site/Blog URL: http://sheddingthiscocoon.blogspot.com/) commented on Passing on the versatile blogger award & some things about my day - http://fat-angry-blog.blogspot.com/:

Your waist is just FANFUCKINGTASTIC. i know i say this every time you post a picture, but you are such a great hourglass shape. You are looking really good mama!

xx
lesley

30 days of songs - Day 9

day 09 - a song that you can dance to

This was tough as I *love* to dance... and I will dance to a variety of songs... I'm still debating editing this and changing the song to "Beloved" by VNV Nation

End of the World by Apoptygma Berserk



Still to come:

day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Good morning! A weigh-in and an award post

weight: 204.2 lbs

Slowly but surely - I'm getting there!  It's been a struggle lately but I did receive a number of compliments yesterday... from my friend's childcare provider and from some of the other parents at Son's Kung Fu class (two of them, about an hour apart said to me, "Oh my God, you are shrinking every time I see you.  You look fantastic.")

It's hard to believe that on April 4, 2010 I was 286 lbs.  I am down 81.8 lbs since then! (And yes, I know I'm really only tracking from when I got focused on July 23, 2010 when I was 278 lbs but I need to celebrate all the weight I've lost since just after I had Baby Girl).

I received The Versatile Blogger Award from the lovely and talented Ellen @ Fat Girl Wearing Thin yesterday.  She couldn't remember the rules & neither can so I'll have to edit this later because Baby Girl is squirming and I have to get dressed so we can go to the Farmer's Market.

Also, I need to post my previously prepared music post...

going to bed - or at least to the bedroom

I'm tired.

Did 10,698 steps today. Could've done more if I'd walked to pick up Son after school but I had a baby asleep on me so I sent Hubs instead.

Read book 3 of the series S-girl has been loaning me.

Debating whether or not Hubs and I should watch Criminal Minds or the rest of AI.

30 days of songs - Day 8

Before I put up the youtube song video... here is a video I shot of Baby Girl last night (just making cute noises) it's over 4 minutes long so if you want to see the cutest part (imo) skip ahead to the 2:40 mark



day 08 - a song that you know all the words to

And I knew all the words BEFORE I was watching GLEE, I'll have you know :>

Don't Stop Believin' by Journey



Still to come:

day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

I have over 10,000 steps today... and some pics

First of all, I went for a walk with S-girl and then Hubs & I walked (with Baby Girl) in the stroller to go get Son at school today.

My current amount of steps since I put my pedometer on at about 11 a.m.

10768 steps... not too bad for 4:22 p.m. on a Tuesday.

Today

March 25th - standing without any support

March 25th

March 28th - Joe Boxer PJs

Who should Hubs share with?  Dog or Baby?

Lessons in begging

Today - this time getting her big brother to share with her...

 

Me (today)

30 days of songs - Day 7

day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event

"I only get goosebumps when the weird part comes!"

This is a song that S-girl and I loved from the first time we heard it on American satellite radio when we were house-sitting for her Mom... we were in an altered state, in super-comfy chairs after having watched the original version of "Hairspray" for the umpteenth time because watching Divine's boobs move independently of one another was (and still is) hilarious!

Touched by VAST (Visual Audio Sensory Theatre)



Still to come:

day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Had belly-dancing tonight

Didn't put my pedometer on until almost supper-time today so I had over 5000 steps since 5 p.m. today.

Rough time with Son after school today -- had to escape the house with S-girl for a bit.

So we are working on a beginner's routine for belly dance.

I have a handout of it so I am going to write it in here because I am highly likely to misplace the handout...

Layli Ya Ain

Intro

Grapevine right, sigh (left foot first) - 8 count
Grapevine left, place - 8 count

Verse 1

Scoop figure 8 (Right back first, total 4) - 8 count
Push figure 8 (Left front first, total 4) - 8 count
Sharqui boxstep 360 (Right foot first) - 16 count
3 point turn (Right foot and arm leading), Shoulder roll - 8 count

Verse 2

Lazy Accent Right (Right foot first) - 8 count
Lazy Accent Left (Left foot first) - 8 count
 
Scoop figure 8 (Right back first, total 4) - 8 count
Push figure 8 (Left front first, total 4) - 8 count
Sharqui boxstep 360 (Right foot first) - 16 count
3 point turn (Right foot and arm leading), Shoulder roll - 8 count

Verse 3

Egyptian walk fwd (Right foot first) - 8 count
Egyptian walk bkwd (Right foot back first) - 8 count

Scoop figure 8 (Right back first, total 4) - 8 count
Push figure 8 (Left front first, total 4) - 8 count
Sharqui boxstep 360 (Right foot first) - 16 count
3 point turn (Right foot and arm leading), Shoulder roll - 8 count

Ending

Shimmy, both arms up & down body - 8 count
Pose (Right hip accent audience)

We've currently learned up to the end of Verse 2 (though we just learned the Lazy Accent tonight).

I have the hardest time at belly dancing because I really don't like to look at myself in the mirror...

at home

At the studio (after class) so my coin belt is off

I was going to write more but I think I want to go up to bed and start reading a book S-girl loaned me.

g'night!

Posty today...

So I read a blog post that Stacy wrote... in it she linked to this article and within that article, I am going to re-post the following:

In the course of detailed interviewing of about 2000 obese patients over the past 20 years, in-depth and often repetitively over time, we have noted several recurrent findings:

• It is rare for anyone to be born obese. In 2000 adult obese patients, only one individual was born overweight, at 14 lb (6 kg), to a 550-lb (250-kg) mother, and she was slender throughout childhood and adolescence until age 20, when she married an alcoholic and suddenly began massive weight gains, ultimately matching her mother’s weight. “Born fat” is a defensive concept.

• A significant minority of our Program participants are born at subnormal weight because of prematurity.

• Obesity indeed runs in families, as does speaking the same language. It is the distribution pattern of body fat deposition that is genetically determined, not its presence.

• Major weight gain is typically abrupt, episodic, and life-event related.

• The forces underlying extreme morbid obesity are relatively easy to discern for those seeking them. They are qualitatively similar to those underlying mild overweight, though they are much harder to discern in the latter.

• The age at which weight gain first began is critically important because it allows one to inquire why it began then. Some patients will know and others will not want to know, but this is an essential point not to be dropped because of patient avoidance.

• Obesity commonly is beneficially protective: sexually, physically, and socially. This is an uncomfortably difficult point for many nonobese individuals to accept.

• Major weight loss may present a significant threat, usually to the person involved, but sometimes to others.

• Emotional support from others for major weight loss is uncertain.

I bolded the items which I would say apply to me.  The protective factor is one that I have spoken about here and there previously within this blog.

My maternal grandmother has struggled with obesity, my birth mom with significant weight changes (normal weight to underweight to obese to underweight to normal weight etc) and my half-sister is in a normal weight category though she has been underweight in the past.

I weighed 3 lbs and 11 oz when I was born (and yes, I was a preemie).

I was underweight as a child, normal weight as a teen (though I thought I was "fat).

I began to gain weight when I became sexually active as a teen, though not huge weight gains at that point.

I used to use alcohol and sex as a way to escape my negative emotions but once I was with Husband v1.0 (son's father) it was food that became my primary comfort/escape.

My weight jumped up when my marriage was bottoming out and my Mom died.

When I split from Hv1.0 - on the wkends when Son wasn't with me... I strayed a bit back into the drinking and sex version of comfort and escapism.

I had brought my weight down to 206.8 in 2006 but I had a bad relationship experience the end of that year and my weight began to go back up and continued to trend upwards when I got together with Hubs.

This time around I am trying to actually work through my feelings with thought, discussion, blogging and also use exercise and general activity as a method of release and that's why this time it's a permanent lifestyle change.

As well, my efforts to make myself more presentable when I face the world is something I never really tried to incorporate into my life before.

I want to set a positive example for my kids (but especially the girls since Son seems to have a fair amount of confidence in himself already whereas Step-Daughter is extremely socially awkward and has some major self-esteem issues).

Back in the day - I would work on my appearance only when I was going out clubbing - to either compete or try to keep up with my friends and/or to try to attract men.

Now I try to make an effort even if I am going out with Hubs and the kids, or my girlfriends or even just to the grocery store -- not because I want to pick someone up or anything like that but just because I think I deserve to look as pretty as I can because IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD.

In that past, wanting to look good battled with an internal sense of shame... like I was being totally fake when I took some care with my appearance because I either felt that I didn't deserve to be pretty or that I was fooling myself and the rest of the world would be snickering and pointing and laughing at me.

A sad clown.

I am thankful that I don't feel that way now!

Further thought on my tiff with Hubs

I mentioned it in this post this morning and then while responding to a comment on a subsequent post I made this morning... I wrote the following which I then decided could be a post in and of itself...

"I think my time with any of my girls tends to be used more productively in that we talk about emotional things, we get physical exercise and we tend to unburden ourselves in general.

Whereas when Hubs and I are home, it's hard to be motivated to accomplish even basic household chores. He's been down for awhile and I think I get sucked into his apathy when we are together and I begin to resent the fact that I feel like he's bringing me down.

So when I go out with the girls, I am blowing off steam, I am reconnecting with myself so that my relationship with Hubs doesn't blow up and it gives him more of an opportunity to try and sort out himself (even if I often feel like he just ignores and/or wallows in his frustration and negativity rather than trying to work through it or move past it to focus on the now and then dip into it to deal with it in manageable doses)."

----

Bottom line is - I love Hubs but it can get really, really hard living with his negativity - especially since I have been working very hard on moving away from negativity and pessimism.

It feels like I keep trying to bring him up to where I am and he keeps (subconsciously) trying to drag me back down to where he is.

I think he needs to go back to therapy - even though I didn't think much of the last person that he saw.

And I think he needs to actually start using his brain to process some of his past experiences rather than either just resenting them and blaming them for where he is (or isn't) in his life NOW.

For example - I had a certain idea, based on how I felt when I first began this blog - what this blog would be like (hence: Fat, Angry Blog) and I am now far less fat, and far less angry (and I don't think even my early posts were as angry as I thought they would be).

It's all about self-perception.


I think I love myself a lot more than I did before and I wish he would/could/WILL feel that way about himself too!

Dreaming of death and tattoos

Odd dreams last night.

I dreamed that my across the road neighbour died (though I never did find out how).  Generally a dream like that does not result in someone's actual death - but they usually have something major change in their lives.

Though when I dream of someone being hurt - usually something comes of it (or, more often, I warn them when I dream something like that and I hear of some "close call" shortly thereafter).

The other thing I remember dreaming about was standing with my shirt pulled up and a tattoo artist drawing on the right-side of my back and down towards my butt - trying to come up with a tattoo design that was both artistically acceptable to me as well as being not too expensive.

He was trying to incorporate my version of short prayer.

What that means is... For a number of years, I focus on the following when I don't have a specific thing to pray about.

Protection (envisioning an egg, held in the claws of a dragon)
Strength (envisioning the back of a well-muscled man, doing a muscle man pose)
Perseverance (envisioning an archer shooting arrows at a far-off target)
Wisdom (envisioning the Thinker)
Oneness with the Universe (envisioning being wrapped in a blanket covered with stars and then standing, head high, arms and legs spread out, the night sky blazing with stars, grounded in the earth, feeling the wind and somehow, sensing the sun even though it isn't visible.

It prompted me to do a bit of googling and I came across this:
http://www.ancient-symbols.com/symbols-directory/hunab-ku.html

The link states the following:  "The Hunab Ku is an ancient Mayan symbol that is said to represent the Supreme God or the One Being, with ‘Hunab’ meaning ‘one state of being’ and ‘Ku’ meaning ‘God.’ It encompasses all opposites in the universe and unites them as one: male and female, dark and light, yin and yang, conscious and unconscious, internal and external—the list goes on. Some believe that the Hunab Ku acts as a bridge to connect these opposites.  

The Hunab Ku symbol is testament to the belief that it can unite opposite forces. It can be likened to the yin-yang symbol, with black spirals on one side, and white spirals on the other. Much ado has been made out of it; especially because of the Mayan prophesy about the year 2012, when the sun will align with Hunab Ku (the galactic center of the universe or the black hole discovered by scientists).

Despite predictions about the future, the symbol is still considered a powerful one. It can be used to achieve balance and harmony in life because of its intrinsic powers of uniting or bridging opposites. It can also be used to connect one’s inner being with one’s external body or to achieve oneness with the universe."

Although it seems very strange of where I dreamed I was going to be tattooed because I have one tattoo - a gargoyle on my right thigh.  I always thought if I got another, it would be on my left thigh to sort of balance things out.

If anyone has a theory on this (other than "maybe you want another tattoo") - feel free to share it.

30 days of songs - Day 6 (and a weigh-in)

OK, on the scale this a.m.

weight:  205.4 lbs

I still have a long way to go - but that was still nice to see.

Had a bit of a tiff with Hubs yesterday because he's feeling like I want to spend my time with my friends rather than with him.  I did point out that we do spend the majority of our time with each other but he's usually ornery re: his current state of joblessness so it's not feeling like quality time.

As well, I need time out with 1G1D1Y, S-girl & K so that I can bounce ideas around re: improving his mood and therefore the energy of our household.

Now - 30 days of songs...

day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere

Some of my friends from college & I listened to this when camping while on our way to B.C. in 1994

No Rain by Blind Melon



Still to come:

day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

30 days of songs - Day 5

weight:  206.0 lbs small drops are better than NO drops but... arrgh!

day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone

This always makes me think of my friend, rycakes and our days in Guelph, ON!

Sleepwalk (Hypnotic remix) by Christian Death




Still to come:

day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

did some shopping today

I ended up buying a pair of rain boots... which was not what I was actually out looking for, but they fit and will keep my huge feet dry at the very least.

Shopping did let me get in 5915 steps so far today, which is OK considering that I have not gone for an actual walk or anything today.

I am also feeling very wiped out... it's the tail end of shark week and Baby Girl (and therefore the rest of us) have not slept soundly for the past few days.

I haven't had a lot to say on here because, frankly, I am getting REALLY REALLY stressed about the fact that Hubs has not found employment yet and I would rather not blog than just spew a whole lot of negativity about that stressful topic on here.

I have gotten more exercise again this week, though still not up to where I was and I attribute that the the lack of sleep + general feeling of being rundown.

I haven't been on the com much (as you can probably tell) so I must apologize for not doing much in the way of reading and commenting.

As always, if there's something you really want me to read/know/comment on -- mention it in a comment or email it to me :>

Other than that - am I too old for a late afternoon nap?  Please say no *wink*

30 days of songs - Day 4

day 04 - a song that makes you sad

This song was always on the radio the last year of my marriage (which was also the last yr of my real (adoptive) Mom's life...

Broken by Seether & featuring Amy Lee



Still to come:


day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Baby Girl's Look-alike Meter

MyHeritage: Family tree - Genealogy - Celebrity - Collage - Morph

30 days of songs - Day 3

day 03 - a song that makes you happy

The Sun Always Shines on TV by A-Ha



Still to come:

day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Pic heavy post before bed! (plus a vlog once youtube processes it)

Steps today: 10366

Went for a walk with S-girl... took a bunch of pics, of which I will share a few. I also have another silly vlog but I'll have to edit this post to add it afterwards.

Had a board meeting tonight - and I'm feeling kind of tired now.

Baby Girl had a decent day - can't believe she's one!!!

Son was excited that it was Baby Girl's bday too - and I snapped a cute pic of them this morning before Son went off to school.

30 days of songs - Day 2

day 02 - your least favorite song (that you can think of off the top of your head)
Although I get a kick out of James VanderBeek being in it - I just hate this video (hate the video more than the song itself)

Blow by Ke$ha (Though I'll probably end up liking it like I did with that "Like a G6" song & Katy Perry)



Still to come:

day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from (one of) your favorite band(s)
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year

Happy 1st birthday, Baby Girl (March 24th)

*This post was prepared in advance* <-- but I screwed up and published it earl... OH WELL!

Well, my EDD was first set at April 4th and then adjusted to April 3rd, my scheduled c-section was set for March 24, 2010.

It was SO MUCH better than my emergency c-section with Son. The worst part was that they blew a vein trying to get my IV in (took 3 attempts) and how badly I was bruised from the spinal (which I had them keep trying until they got it in - despite how much it hurt because I did not want to be put under).

The best thing in the world was when the OBGYN told me that I had a Baby Girl ("and she's peeing")!

Even though it seemed unlikely that I would ever have another child after Son... and especially so after our surprise pregnancy and miscarriage right before we had Baby Girl... I could not be more thankful.

As a child, I wanted to be a Mom more than anything.

In high school, I had decided that I wanted to have a girl, then a boy and then one more baby (hopefully a girl, though a boy would be OK). I was into older, classic names then... and thought I would have an Emily, an Edward and an Anne.

Thanks to Hubs having Step-Daughter, I do have my girl, my boy and my girl.

But this post is about Baby Girl so here come the pics!

My half-sis and S-Girl (who is Son's godmother)

Baby Girl's godmother, K

1G1D1Y and the hat she knit for Baby Girl

Son holding Baby Girl (with his godfather's help)

my spine, 3 days later

At home... still a little jaundiced

Kangaroo care (tucked in Mommy's shirt)