Look -- an update!

weight: 264.4

I was all prepared to log in and have a lot to bitch about because I've been really demotivated and feeling bad about myself when, low and behold, I've dropped a little.

I actually feel excited right now.

Fatsecret says it will take 12 months to get to my goal weight at my current pace - which is OK though sometimes I lose more than anticipated and then it lessens my timeline to goal weight and when I stay the same, it extends it.

I wish it could just average it by my monthly loss.

So - a friend was talking to me about food combining and how that can really help kickstart weight loss.

And I remembered that years ago I had bought a book about it. I dug it up and it is "Somersizing" by Suzanne Sommers but it's funny because she calls carbs "carbos" and frankly, there are some things I like eating together.

I like my fruit smoothies made with yogurt and almond milk - I don't want to make them with water or juice.

Also, she likes using artificial sweeteners - which I don't like.

But there may be some things in her book that I can try to incorporate into our evolving lifestyle.

On the sex front -- I am still not putting out because i still don't really feel sexy and I am afraid I'd get pregnant again. Had a dream the other night that after our youngest that we had twins.

Don't even know if they were boys or girls or one of each but the plan is no more babies in this house so it's kind of good that i feel unsexy because that helps ensure there are no more babies.

I really need to get some protein powder for my smoothies because I do not consume enough protein and it is supposed to help you build muscles and muscles help you burn fat.

Then other things I read say I need to consume less carbs so that I burn the fat I carry as fuel rather than creating more fuel.

But isn't that kind of what the Atkins diet is for?

I am making slow progess with the small changes I am making and I am OK with that. But I still feel like maybe there is one magical way out there that is right for me that will help me lose a little faster.

I read a bit about the Blood Type diet but I am a Type A and that's apparently mostly vegetarian which makes me say a big huge YUCK!

It was suggested that I consider getting up really early to workout but for the elliptical of naughty noises - it's LOUD and I like to have loud music going or if I am walking, I'd be too scared to go for a walk outside when there's not a lot of traffic for safety reasons.

Yep, I worry that some degenerate might want to attack me if I am out there alone.

We did manage to go for a family walk last night. So that's good too!