The kind where you pause and say, "I'm ____ years old and I still don't know how to be what I want to be when I grow up."
For me - the number is 38.
When I was in kindergarten I wanted to be a Mom and a writer and over the years other things got added in, I think when I was 13 or so I wanted to be a Mom, a writer, an actress, a singer and a dancer.
The only things on that list that never changed were wanting to be a Mom and wanting to be a writer.
I have tons of unfinished fiction pieces, I have a lot of poetry, and I have some blogs.
Does blogging make me a writer? (A poor, unpaid one, but a writer nonetheless???)
This is the main blog that gets my attention and I keep debating whether or not I should merge my main blog with this one but I have a main blog (mostly filled with hypothetical tumbleweeds at the moment), a poetry blog and a blog about my kids all affiliated with my non-anonymous life.
I have a Twitter account (that I rarely use), I have a Facebook, I have a real name that's not "Jayne Doe" or "FatAngryBlog" (though even on my other blogs, I don't use my real name because I get paranoid since at least on FB I can use privacy settings).
The reason I started this Fat, Angry Blog was because I wasn't ready to tell people in my real life about my weight loss journey.
I had a fear of failure and even a fear of being mocked for trying to change AGAIN and lose weight AGAIN.
Now my other blogs don't have many followers, but I have always sort of separated my life and my identity into different pieces and certain pieces are what some of my acquaintances relate to and a few people get the whole package in all it's sarcastic, self-depreciating glory.
So I am still not ready now to merge the blogs, I have started to consider it. Though the poetry/fiction should probably still stay on it's own even if I do decide to roll everything else into one in the future.
But I have to say that I am so pleased to have "met" so many wonderful people on this journey to health. Some of you are in the same place I am, some of you are way ahead in maintenance-land and some of you are just starting out and I have to say that I learn things from and/or relate to all of you and I hope that you (the collective you) find the same things when you come here.
Thanks for listening, thanks for reading, thanks for understanding and thanks for commenting so I know I'm not just yelling into the wind!
"I'm fat as hell and I'm not going to take it anymore!" -- this was my original summary of Fat, Angry Blog. Between July 23, 2010 & April 2, 2011 I went from 278 lbs to 204.2 lbs. BUT here I am near the end of July 2012 at 255 lbs... *SIGH* I've got to stick with it this time!
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I wish you the best as you figure it all out.
ReplyDeleteAnd yeah, if you are writing, then you are a writer. Keep working at it if it's what you love.
It's hard to only write about weight loss when you have a life outside of that. Personally, I like reading how people fit weight loss into their lives (especially when you have kids and spouse that doesn't want to eat that diet crappy food).
ReplyDeleteAnd I say if you are writing - no matter what it is - then you are a writer. If you enjoy it, keep it up!
I rarely tell my friends that I'm doing this weight loss journey. I'm not sure why--probably because of the failure factor too. People see me, they notice a difference--I can tell, but they never say anything. No one knows about my blog but my blog readers are so supportive tha I wouldn't have it any other way!!
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to find that balance between your "real" life and blogland. I share limited details of my personal life (i.e. my real first name, my children's ages, my husband's name, etc). That is mostly because there are folks following my blog that I don't "know." However, I do have people from my "real" life following my blog.
ReplyDeleteI made the decision that for me, having folks in my real life reading it made me more accountable. And if I hear someone say to me, "You're trying to lose weight AGAIN?" I'd probably tell them where to shove it. I just don't have room in my life for unsupportive people. Life is too short!
Of course, that's all a very personal decision, and I wish you well in making it. I, for one, really enjoy this blog and am happy to have found it!!
I'm backreading (obviously) and I can't believe I missed some of these great posts! I think you should definitely consider merging your blogs....I can't believe you handle more than one AND kids a the same time. That deserves some kind of medal.
ReplyDeleteThanks Ellen! I think maybe once I am closer to goal, that would be the best time to consider merging the blogs.
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