After I get the hang of this... I'll have a giveaway in the next week.

I am messing around with My Memories Suite because I received an email offering me a copy of the software to try out and a giveaway (but I'll post that once I've played around with the program, which I received a copy of).

They've also given me a coupon code STMMMS64457 which is only good for the program I am using (My Memories Suite v2) though if you tend to be the impatient type, you have the opportunity to go to the site and by using the coupon code above, a $10 discount off the purchase of the My Memories Suite Scrapbook software and a $10 coupon for the MyMemories.com store (which is a $20 value!)

Once I get a page or two done, I'll screen-cap them and post them to the blog using one of my other google email addresses where I haven't used the maximum allowable photos and also post the official giveaway.

I won't be doing it today though, because it is Hubs' bday and we've got things to do! Plus I'm supposed to take Little Man for an autism-research testing session later this afternoon.

It's been a week

My mood is still decidedly depressed.

That being said, I had a decent day today -- Hubs and I went to Elora.  He and Baby Girl went to the museum whilst I perused the archives looking for genealogical info on my ancestors.

http://www.wcm.on.ca/archives_arcollect.php

Tonight I am going out dancing with Baby Girl's godmother and Little Man's godfather.

Hubs is staying home with my kids (he says "as usual") and Baby Girl's godfather is staying home with his kids.

Other than that, not much to say but I did remember to post!

Saturday is Hubs bday.  I'll have to make a cake on Friday.

Though Sat afternoon, Little Man is participating in an autism study for York university.

Where I'm at - mentally, physically and financially

So what I tend to do when I get depressed is that I throw myself into something different.

I become less introspective and tend to internalize the things going on rather than dealing with them.

With that being said...

First things first.

Mentally - I'm still really out of sorts, unmotivated, depressed and frustrated.

Physically - I have only being doing the diaperfit class with Baby Girl and I've been eating complete crap. Ready for the horrible backslide confession???

I am appalled that I've done this.

But here we go.

*sigh*

Weight: 232.0 lbs

That's up 27.8 lbs from my all-time low of 204.2 back in April on this year.

:(

The things I've thrown myself into re: my main method of escapism...

#1 - genealogical research (which is actually pretty cool and is helping me feel more connected to the maternal side of my birth family.
#2 - online games - word games, yahtzee, FB games like who wants to be a millionaire and are you smarter than a 5th grader and family feud.
#3 - going out dancing with my friends (although I have been doing more drinking than my usual).
#4 - EATING CRAPPY FOOD!

Financially things are tight.  Hubs has not found work yet, though he did attend a job fair on Saturday and he has had 3 job interviews this week so we're hoping something comes of it all... though he'd most like to hear from the job fair and that's the one he hasn't heard anything from.

He was 62 hrs under what he needed to qualify for employment insurance so we've had no income since he was let go in Sept.

If it weren't for the fact that we live in geared-to-income housing and that I receive the Canada Child Tax Benefit for Little Man and Rhyme Girl - we'd be completely fucked.

Hopefully one of these interviews turns into a job.  Worst case scenario - we apply for Ontario Works (aka welfare) and I look into going back to retail part-time around whatever temp work Hubs can find.

*sigh*

re: the kids:

I've been having some real issues with Little Man and his temper... it's stressing me out a lot.

I've ordered a new book with some birthday money I received and once it gets here, and I read it - I'll either post here or on my kids blog about it.

And I'm still concerned about Baby Girl's speech development.

At her 18-month-appointment - she was not hitting all the milestones, but she was close.  Our family DR told me to wait until she's 2 and see how she's doing then.

This is the same thing he said about Little Man so I've got Baby Girl on a waiting list at KidsAbility just in case.

She is communicative - but she still uses a limited amount of words.

Because Little Man has autism spectrum disorder and Rhyme Girl has ADHD - I am really trying to be proactive when it comes to Baby Girl because that places her at an increased risk of having one or both of these issues.

I really need to stop being self-destructive re: eating crap, not exercising, not expressing my feelings & just HIDING from the things that are bothering me.

I can't promise that I'll blog as much as I used to -- but I am going to commit to making at least one entry per week.

I hope everyone else is doing better than I am...

Thanksgiving weekend here in Canada

Well, the kids are driving me a little bit nuts...

I've been keeping busy with ancestry.ca and family tree related things.

And my period is being strange.

Blah!

I hope all of you are well.